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Going To California

Tue, 02 Nov 2010 16:10:28 -0400

Going To California

California...

Fri, 15 Oct 2010 14:31:35 -0400

So apparently I haven’t updated this here blog in a while. I wonder if I still have any readers/followers anymore? Well, for what it’s worth, I apologize. As of right now, my life has been a whirling dervish of emotions and goings-on. As you may or may not know, I packed up all my worldly possessions, kissed my parents goodbye and moved to California. At first, I was elated. The unbridled potential that this city possesses frightens and excites me all at once. I knew that I wouldn’t be able to make my dream a reality if I stayed in Missouri, and I also knew that if I didn’t go when I did, I would have never gone. I had to push myself to leave. It was very difficult, yes, but the long term payoff outweighed the short term satisfaction of staying at home.

Now that I’ve been here for a little less than two months, I keep asking myself “what went wrong here?” I knew that my dream was not going to be attained for quite some time, but I figured that getting on the right track wouldn’t take very long at all. Color me shocked now. I constantly apply for jobs in the industry; entry level positions in production. As of right now, I have only landed one gig on an unpaid indie shoot. Yeah, it was worth it, but it’s not putting money in my pocket. It’s really hard to constantly put yourself out there for jobs and opportunities that you know for certain you’ll never hear about again. I apply. I follow up. I hear nothing. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Is the juice really worth the squeeze?

I think so, but I have no way of really knowing.

The thing that worries me the most about all of this is that I’m probably going to land a part-time job and then never continue with my dream, and frankly, I don’t want that to happen. I know real-life happens to the people who don’t deserve it, but not me. I can’t let it happen. I came way too far to just lie down and take the beating. I didn’t fight my way through college, changing my life into something I never thought it would be, leave everything that I’ve ever known and loved to just give up. I have to do something; I just don’t know what at the moment.

Demo Reel 7/26/10

Mon, 26 Jul 2010 13:37:20 -0400

Demo Reel 7/26/10

The Director Reel

Thu, 14 Jan 2010 03:00:21 -0500

The Director Reel

Demo Reel

Sat, 09 Jan 2010 01:09:06 -0500

Demo Reel

conversation.stopper

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 14:27:57 -0500

conversation.stopper

evil.glare

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 14:25:58 -0500

evil.glare

beer.pong

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 14:24:03 -0500

beer.pong

peacoat.parade

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 14:21:32 -0500

peacoat.parade

classy.new.years.

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 14:16:11 -0500

classy.new.years.

sorry.for.the.overdue.updates.

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 14:14:04 -0500

sorry.for.the.overdue.updates.

christmas.light.luminaries

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 14:12:00 -0500

christmas.light.luminaries

Music For The Seasons

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 20:17:03 -0400

I have found that I tend to favor certain bands or even specific albums in specific seasons. For instance, I can’t stop listening to Circa Survive during these cold fall/winter months, because the soundscapes they created in “Juturna” and “On Letting Go” parallel the cold weather. It’s really hard to explain, but it’s just what I do.

Examples of Fall/Winter music:

Circa Survive

The Sound Of Animals Fighting

+44 (it reminds me of the 2007 Ice Storm).

The Postal Service

Examples of Spring/Summer music:

311

Incubus

Muse

Nine Inch Nails

Reel Big Fish

Rage Against The Machine

Buy.this.album. Go.

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 20:09:27 -0400

Buy.this.album. Go.

my.new.cell.phone

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 17:07:35 -0400

my.new.cell.phone

the.wheels.on.the.block.go….round?

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 17:05:24 -0400

the.wheels.on.the.block.go….round?

Hurricane Katrina...in my basement.

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 01:58:54 -0400

At this point right now, there is roughly 5 1/2 inches of water in my basement. The worst part about it is that it’s coming in through the foundation, which means that even after this massive storm subsides, there will still be water coming into the basement. Wait, i forgot the most important fact of this story: my room is in the basement.

I have had to wear rubber boots to go into my basement to get important things from my now flooded room. My box spring is now ruined, and my bookshelf and night stand have soaked their bases in the nasty rainwater.

Fuck this day. I wish it never happened.

"And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds. Of what was everything."

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 17:33:55 -0400

“And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds.
Of what was everything.”

- Pearl Jam - “Black”

wicked.firestarter

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 01:48:01 -0400

wicked.firestarter

fireflies.in.the.sky

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 01:46:41 -0400

fireflies.in.the.sky